Sunday, July 18, 2010
I am thankful!
I have to be a little honest and say I have been a little bitter about life these days. Not that I am not thankful for my family, or all my many blessings. I am so thankful! I watch my happy healthy kids play and giggle and I say a quick pray for how wonderful my life is. I do the same everyday when I see my handsome hubby who I am lucky enough to look at and feel like the most beautiful and lucky women in the world. I am just bitter with my leg and doctors and everything that has to do with the medicine field. That brings me to my point. Last Saturday one of my best friends Lisa from Alaska called to say that she was engaged. I was so excited. I am lucky to say I have lots of amazing friends that would do and have done so much and who I have shared so much with. Lisa and Nancy are in a whole different bracket. They have literally cried and fought and laughed threw moments in my life that were life changing. Nancy for years supported me and pushed me in my wheel chair. Lisa was with me when I found out I was pregnant with Abi. When Lisa told me she was getting married I was beyond happy for her but a little sad I would miss it. Coming up with the money to fly to Utah in December would never happen. With Christmas we could never budget for both. Then Lisa called me and told me that her mom and dad were going to fly me to Utah for the wedding on the condition that I was their wedding slave. In that moment I was full of absolute love. Love for my Heavenly father for giving me a big " I love you and I know you". I know my Heavenly blesses me with all my many talents. I am so blessed. So, I just wanted to share my testimony of my Heavenly father. I know that he sent his son here to suffer for me. I think a lot about how unbelievably hard that must have been. How lucky am I. I have the option to go to my Heavenly Father and repent of all my mistakes so that I may have the chance to live with my wonderful husband and my amazing kids and all my family not only temporarily but for eternity. What a amazing gift. I know that Joseph Smith knelt in pray and was given the knowledge to begin a new church. I think of how easily I get frustrated in my life then to think about all that him and Emma went threw and lost I can never be more thankful for their strength. I am know that modern prophets lead and guide us today. I know that my heavenly father loves and knows me. I know he knows of my frustration and my battles and I am thankful when simple moments happen when I feel like he says" I'll throw you a bone. Take a breath- enjoy!" I can not say I will not be bitter about life every now and again I can say that I will never stop fighting to always remember how blessed I am.
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I think I could say, "Amen!" and end there, but I would then miss telling you how much I admire you. Isn't it sad that you only see people for a brief time at church, and we're all so busy, that you don't get to say how you really feel? Sometimes I just don't know how you do all that you do, especially with the challenges that sometimes come with your "floppy foot" as you say. Yes, you are very talented and bless so many peoples' lives with your gifts. Remember these things when that bitterness starts to creep back in. Love, Pam
I can't even imagine all that you have gone through with your leg. I think it is ok to be bitter every now and then. Especially when you can also experience the extreme opposite - gratitude. Your gratitude wouldn't be as deep without having experienced the bitter. I just want you to know that I think that you are one of the most amazing people I know. Both in talent and personality! Love you!
P.S. I am so glad you get to go out to Utah to be with your friend for her wedding. I know you'll be able to make her wedding extra special for her!
Thank you for sharing your testimony (I really needed that) it helped me realize that the little "challenges" we got through are not so bad. We have the "floppy foot" thing too with Wyatt and get frustrated sometimes, but we have to remember that our Father in Heaven will not put on us more than we can bear. I think you are a beautiful person inside and out and it shows in your children how wonderful you are!
If we could remember the meeting with "Our Father" we would each gain a better understanding of mortalities challenges.I Love You Baby Girl, because of your willingness to give back,to your family, friends and all you come in contact with. Love dad,
For what you may lack in a "regular" leg you more than make up for in your talents! Your strength along inspires me. I love to hear you talk about how these things could have gotten you down but you choose not to live your life that way. My beautiful son has many challenges and just like you he doesn't let that stop him. I am so lucky just to know you and be able to have a few minutes around you to feed off your positivity. I am so glad you get to go to Utah in December. Let Aaron know we can help out with the kids if he needs it. Enjoy the snow and mountains and the wedding.
All I can say is thanks... Thanks for being you, having the strength that you do and your willingness to share all of you with all of us. I was moved to tears when I read this post. Life is so short and so few people realize how blessed we really are. You are a bright light that shines for all those around you! Enjoy your time in Utah.. it is truly God's country!
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