The big day!

OK so tomorrow is the big day. Another surgery.....yikes. I try not to talk a lot about me like because I feel like a bit of a whiner when I do so but tomorrows surgery brinngs me such a mix of feeling I felt I needed to get all these emotions out.

   First let me just say how much I love you ALL! Casey, Cassie, Katheryn, Tina, Aunt Debbie, Erin. and Becky. You woman amaze me with so much. Once I learned about the surgeryand shared it with you each one of you volunteered to give me not 1 day a week but to help but 1 day a week for 5 weeks. I know I have said thank You, but in complete honesty without  you all encouraging me I never would have done this. As scary as this is with a crazy recovery this has been my dream since I was 16 years old. I have fought since then just in case I would have this oppurtunity. SO when I tell you thank you. This is the most kind and special thing any friend has ever done for me. To All the other amazing and kind sisters and friends that have as well offered there time and services THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU ALL!

Second, I just want to tell me husband how much I love him. Words can not express the devotion and love that Aaron has. At one point in my child hood I could not even imagine that I would get married. With all the baggage I bring I really gave up on it. Then came Aaron and every slight day dream I had of marriage he surpassed. Thanks YOU Aaron! For giving my fight back and for showing me everyday how much you love me. In these pass months and weeks our life has been crazy but threw it all I have you. Thanks you for being my biggest supporter. Thank you for showing me that I can do this and that whatever sacrifices our family makes for these next weeks only makes our family stronger. I do not know another man on earth who can deal with what you have and still be so wonderful. I love you babe! Thanks!

Third, the hardest part of this is my kids. Oh it breaks my heart already the things I will miss and the things I will have to watch as other people do. These weeks leading up to tomorrow I really really tried to enjoy. The stressful things I will even miss. I know I will be here. I know they will be in their home, in their beds with people that love them. I will not be the one making there dinner or getting them clean or taking them to school. I think as a mother I am terrified of what they will think or feel. I do not ever want them to see me as weak or worry if I am in pain. That being said the hardest part of this all is on one side of my heart tomorrow means the world to me. Hopefully tomorrow will help me walk normal....what a gift after all these years. Then on the other side my family , friends and children are all sacrificing for me. I never want to make any one I love hurt because of a choice that benifits me. I know you are all going to tell me that is silly but I am pouring my heart out and that is how it feels. I know now more than ever my Heavenly Father loves me. I know I prayed about this decision. This is just new. I never felt such a range in emotion. From complete gratitude and love to complete fear and dread.  To you all I love you! Thanks for all that you have and will do for my family. I am not sure how but I promise I will repay you all. Thanks and keep those fingers crossed. Tomorrow may be the last day this floppy foot flops!

The big O-5!

Tomorrow Abigail turns 5 years old. I really can not believe it. When Abi was born I remember holding her and thinking of this time in her - our life. Who would she be? What would she act like? What would her voice sound like? what would she look like? Would she be outspoken like myself or quiet and thoughtful like her daddy? Now this day is here ( .......I am not ready) and I look at her in wonder of where all our time together went and how amazing she is. She on a daily basis  takes my breath away with her sweetness. Hourly I have to remind her " I am the mommy" so that so will stop and enjoy life instead of worrying about her brother. Now to think our next big milestone is when she gets baptized is wild to think of. I could not even try to dream of that day when she was born it seemed like a lifetime away. I say thank you to my heavenly father nightly to have trusted me with a amazing girl like her. Now I know exactly who she is. She is just breath taking. In more ways than one.  So before I start to cry while I write this I am going to go....  I just want to share the reasons why I love her.

I LOVE ABIGAIL BECAUSE..........

* She makes me laugh

* She talks constantly..... she is so curious

*when life gets crazy she asks to listen to church music in the car which always un-stresses me.

* she dances..... she reminds me to dance..... she is the only one that can get Aaron to dance.

*she always wants to hold my hand

* she has amazing fashion sense...... she tells me exactly what she likes

*when I get busy and put her to bed with out saying pray she ALWAYS comes out and reminds me.

* her cuddles I get in the morning and at night.

* ALL her HELP

* her tenderness

I could pretty much go on and on but I will stop but March 14th will always be one of the most important and wonderful days of my life. Thanks for making me a Mommy and I hope your 5th birthday is all you have dreamed of. I know your everything I dreamed of and more. I love you! Happy Birthday Boo!

Gold Head State park

  

 Both Aaron and I remember as a child going to Gold head. When we get bored on just need to go on a drive then were always end up there.

 

 The weather here has been amazing so we had so much fun just being outside and together. Harris loved it because combed the shore and found sticks to throw in the water. Abi was off looking for flowers aka weeds.

 

Then we were off to the playground. Which on a gorgeous day is  ALWAYS fun for everyone.

I love my family and gorgeous days!

My Bedroom

 Last month Aaron and I were talking i happened to say that I hated our bedroom. I love my home however my bedroom got the short end of the stick when I was decorating our house. Aaron decided then that we would re-do it and I now LOVE it. I painted my bed a bright yellow and got new bedding. That I LOVE!

 I had 4 spare canvas's so I painted them black and glued on these cute flowers!

 

I got this armoire off of craigs list for $75

 I got my own little scrapbooking space!

My favorite part these pictures that my friend over at Jarvis photography took of  my little ones!!!

I love my room !!!!!!! YEAH!

Presidents Day

  For presidents day we decided to get out. The weather has been AMAZING! We decided we would take a drive and go. We ended up at Manatee Springs. It was gorgeous! This time of year all the Manatees come up into the springs to get away from the cold. We saw 2. One momma and her baby calf. It was fun then we saw SNAKES........ and more snakes........ and more snakes. YUCK! The boys loved it the girls were ready to jump into the car.

 You can not see them but there were  manatees out there.Were the ripple is .

 

 Snake #1.... Do you see him?

 There were about 30 of the big buzzard looking birds in one spot. It was weird.

 My big boy loving that his jeans had pockets!!!!!

 Snake #2

 Snake #3 and 4

 Snake #6 and 7

 Then we plays on the playground and had fun!

 By the end of the day we had a wonderful time the kiddos slept all the way home so Aaron and I got to hold hands and chat uninterrupted for 2 and 1/2 hours. Loved it!

My favorite things!!!

* The barriers that were there to keep us away form the snakes

* Abi's face when she realized there were snakes

*Listening to Abi and Harris chat in the back seat as we drove

*Watching Aaron and Harris talk about the snakes

*Putting me feet up on the dashboard and enjoying the ride

*The weathe*Walking with Aaron hand in hand..... I love him.

* Just being a family together